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November 19th, 2004
01:55 pm - I never can think of a subject...
Shibaraku desu ne. Nihon o ikimashita node takusan nihongo o naraimashita. Mainichi sukoshi zutsu nihongo o naraimasu yo. TOTEMO URESHII!!!!!! NIHON O AI SURU!!!!! Nihongo no section wa Owari!
(Long time no see. I learned a lot of Japanese because I went to Japan. I learn a little more Japanese every day! I AM VERY HAPPY!!!!!!! I LOVE JAPAN! The Japanese Section is Done!)
There is my japanese knowledge at work. I did that straight out of my head. I have so much to write about but not enough time and not the place to write it. Just to test if anyone reads this anymore I would like you to comment please. Thank you in advance.
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October 9th, 2004
02:38 am - lol dear journal :P been having lots of fun
I don't know what to write other than it has been lots of fun. I like my new japanese teacher! Can't wait for the long weekend cuz im planning lots of stuff with my friends! Even stuff with the people I met at the convention which is what I want. I want to see the people I met at the convention a lot more. I can't wait to see them all next year at 2005. I think thats all im going to write for now. Peace out.
Kyle
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August 25th, 2004
01:04 pm - Need to say this.
Ok, first of all to whoever reads this, this is not meant to hurt them. This is just a diary of my feelings so I just have to say whats on my mind. My god, I had so much fun at the anime convention I went to. Anime Evolution is where I met lots of cool people in the Greater Vancouver area that love Anime as much or even more than me. Amazing experience I even got to meet David Kaye. (OMG)All that is temporary. Now that the convention is over, I return to my lost form. I don't know whats going on anymore. I even doubt myself which I know is so horribly wrong. I really really just want to escape from it all. Maybe thats why I want to move to Japan. Start a new life. The only people I keep are my parents and my grandparents. Maybe thats how it should be. Somebody give me a sign... I also just wish people could figure out that they can't help everybody they care for, for everything. I wish they could stop sweating the small stuff. If they hurt them a bit, so what. My god, don't beat yourself up for it. I know people who are doing just that and I wish they could figure out that its stupid. Anyways. yea, I NEED A SIGN... V.V
Current Mood: sad
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12:35 pm - ...
I just wanted to let everyone know that I do care about you all. I really do care. If I say anything else, then somebody will yell.
P.S. Found the perfect song to express my feelings! ^_^
Current Music: The Moffats - Girl of my Dreams
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July 25th, 2004
10:02 pm - Understanding...and a bit of sadness
Rhythm Emotion (Gundam Wing Intro # 2)
I just feel rhythm emotion
The rhythm from the beat of my heart
I always know where I can find you, so far away
I don't care if it will hurt
Please try not to look away,
I want to live with passion and intesity
You give me the strength to never give up
Thats why I'll continue holding you in my arms
I just feel rhythm emotion
Take the mistakes and take all the pain
Guide what you have through to the fleeting, beautiful light
I just feel rhythm Emotion
The rhythm from the beat of my heart
I always know where I can find you, so far away
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I just finished watching Gundam Wing this morning at 4:00, then I watched Endless Waltz. The Series as a whole is in my opinion the best Gundam ever. At First, Zechs was my favourite character, then slowly it became Heero. If I had to compare myself to any anime character it would be him. Our personalities are similar in many ways. Rhythm Emotion is now my favourite song because it brings up so many feelings in me!
Jackie phoned me tonight. She killed my parents! YAY Go Sango. ^_^ So sad, Brittany has left and gone off to a friends and then to her grandma's. Hopefully in a weeks time when she reaches her grandmother's place, she thinks of me and phones. I really miss her, and wish I could talk to her. Yesterday was the first time I saw the sunset and then rise before I went to bed. It was funny, im like "oh the suns up, time to go to bed" heh I laughed when I said that. Now that Gundam Wing is finished V.V I started watching Hunter X Hunter. Its good too, but not as good. I am at the part where the Group JUST got their Hunter Licence from the test! My days are getting more stressful at work. Brittany's giving me strength though because after all, I am going to use this money to go see her when its all said and done. That will be the best time of my life. I can't think of anything else to write right now.
Ja ne.
Current Music: Rhythm Emotion - Gundam Wing
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June 13th, 2004
09:52 pm - Hahaha somebody give me a sign.....
Just Communication~~~~~Gundam Wing Opening # 1
Just wild beat communication
While being pounded by rain
I want to express this unfading passion
with my entire body, tonight!
I held your
damp shoulders to warm you.
Your fingers tremble;
what are they seeking?
I want to protect that look in your eyes
Believe in the love
that can change sadness to strength.
Just wild beat communication
While being pounded by rain
I want to express this unfading passion
with my entire body, tonight!
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A while ago, I would of said the blade was tempting. I laugh at myself now for that. That was one of the stupidest, weakest and most pathetic things I have ever thought. I feel like being my old self again. If anyone wants to know how I feel they can ask but I don't feel like telling anyone right now. I do not feel like talking to anyone either. I only feel like opening up the msn but waiting to see who will talk. Brittany is an exception though. Maybe a couple of other people too. I had fun babysitting last night. When the kid went asleep, I watched Gundam Wing. So awesome. I can't wait to see how it ends. I watched up to episode 6, and am now on episode 11. It is such a cool show. I got the Intro song stuck in my head. I might add more later.
Mina san, mata ne
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/mellow_sr.gif) complacent
Current Music: Just Communication - Gundam Wing
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May 28th, 2004
08:46 am - Hello friends. Lots to talk about! ^^
So long since I posted. So much has happened. First of all....my friend is scaring me. I want my scissors back but she won't give them back......>< Well anyway for the past couple days i have been sorta thinking of hurting myself. eg. falling backwards on the highest section of the playground. My friend is playing with my scissors. like just fooling around and I feel like sticking my hand in the middle of it. Dam I must go bye! OMG OMG I AM SO hAPPY!!! I will explain why at the end. I think I should save the best for last : P Well I had this new outcome on life that I thought of. You can make yourself happy and sad. All depending on how you think about your life. You could have no parents because they died, you could live with a bad condition or disease and still be happy. People who are depressed and want to kill themselves think they have nothing sometimes. Well when they kill themselves they really will have nothing so what they have is life. A chance to start over if they would like but they have life. Everyone should be happy just to have life. OMFG Mae, a very good friend of mine phoned me today! She hasn't talked to me since December of 2003! She made me so happy!!!!! HOLY I thought that today was the best day of my life argueably. But now at around 4:20 it was undisputibly the Greatest Day of my Year. I can't remember when I was so happy. I talkede to Melissa...Brittany's friend. We talked for a little while and explained how I haven't been myself lately and why. Then she said that Brittany told her last week that she still loves me. She loves me a lot too. OMG I wish Brittany would have told me herself but since she hasn't been there when I tried to contact her on the phone it was awesome. I almost started crying. I was on the brink of crying. Together everything that happened today made this the happiest day of my life that you remember. I can't think of anything else to write but when I do, I will write in it. Goodbye People who read this.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/happy_sr.gif) OMG VERY VERY HAPPY!!!
Current Music: Track 8 of my Fuckin Awesome Burned Disc!
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May 4th, 2004
09:07 am - Brittany I love you!!!! Everyone else I love you all too.
Floryda has proved something that I have been thinking of for a very long time and I am so sorry that no one else has figured it out yet. Or atleast I think they haven't. Don't yell at me anyone or think that I am attacking any of you or dissing any of you. I still love you all. Its just I think that I was a much happier person before I went on the internet. I never used to cry at all but now I find myself crying a bit too regularly lately. I still love everyone I am just saying that sometimes I think that I wish I was never involved with the internet. I mean it pains me when Mouse has a bad day. It pains me when Floryda is having a bad day. It pains me when James and my Bro Peyton and everyone else I care about is having a bad day. Maybe everyone has thought of this once but if you haven't, maybe you should. I think that the people I have met are too important to me and I am too important to them to just leave but right now I am really truely thinking about it. I shouldn't I just feel like dieing thats all. The sweet taste of the knife to my tongue. Man I love the taste of metal. Metal to my throat. Its not that bad, I have been stabbed before. Why not try again? wait I know why because too many people care about me. Sorry whoever is reading this, I am just having an arguement with myself really. I will stop now.
On a nother note, James I thought you said you hate LJ and don't go on it. I am very sad that you lied.
Current Mood: No one will know my exact mood
Current Music: Talking of my two friends beside me!
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April 29th, 2004
08:59 am - Don't worry about me, Please! I beg of everyone who does!
I miss everyone. James, Peyton (Bro), Mae (can't say your name), Anne, kathy, Krystle, Heather and lots more like jordan and zero and all my friends that I met on the internet. I haven't been able to talk to them for so long. Usually I would get angry and mad, because thats how I am. I am an angry person deep down. I control it most of the time. But now I am sad. I can speak lots and lots of Japanese though. I also now all the Grade 1 kanji! ^_^_^_^ Thats 60! You know maybe I can't control who worries about me (of course I can't) but I wish they wouldn't because how can i comfort them. I am starting to think now that If they worry about me, then maybe its because they want to, or they do care about me. I know some people already care but I was surprised that 1 person really cared a lot more about me then I thought. I miss her too! The only person I don't miss is Brittany because she is always close to me in my heart and I feel her right now trying to cheer me up! But she can't cheer me up now! Only the people I care about can! Oh now
DO THAT THING WHERE YOU ASK ME 3 QUESTIONS, NO MORE NO LESS THING! YOU CAN ASK ME ANYTHING AND I WILL ANSWER IT TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITIES! IF YOU WOULD NOT LIKE TOO THATS OK!
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Chobits Ending # 2
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April 27th, 2004
09:22 am - Jacked from Julie!!!! ^_^ MWAHAHA
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Current Music: Luke Vibert - Swing :Lite Alright
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April 16th, 2004
08:29 am - Got this from Kitty!
It makes exact sense. This sounds like me!
 You are maroon. You represent cunning stength, but usually a manipulative power evolves from it. You are vengeful and impure, and have nearly lost all hope at become beautiful inside again. What inner color are you? [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<font [...] shirono</font>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] It makes exact sense. This sounds like me! <A HREF= " http://quizilla.com/users/Shirono/quizzes/The%20inner%20color%20quiz%20(Utena%20Images)" > <IMG SRC="http://homepage.mac.com/werkers/colorquiz/youaremaroon.jpg"> <P>You are maroon. You represent cunning stength, but usually a manipulative power evolves from it. You are vengeful and impure, and have nearly lost all hope at become beautiful inside again.</P> <P>What inner color are you? </P></A> <P><FONT SIZE= "-1"Quiz by Shirono</FONT> </P>
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/indifferent_sr.gif) gloomy
Current Music: Buzzing and Typing of Computers in Computer Class
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April 8th, 2004
09:51 am
HEY! I got to see my friend again. My friend named Amy. Man I haven't seen her in a while. Our friendship sorta goes on and off because we don't talk to each other much. Now is one of those on times and since its good friday, I think I am going to spend the day with her out near where she lives (which is where I used to live) Brittany...I have been thinking about you a lot. I really miss you. Phone me please!!! I saw the cutest pic of anne on atlamystic the other day. Just a reminder of how cute she always is. Well lol i added douming as a friend to livejournal. Man he takes cracks at two people that are my friends. Its not that funny because they don't like it but what can I do?? Peyton, I replied to his livejournal so he knows I read it often. Don't want him to forget. Lol well I am done. I am happy for a change. The world for me is good.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/singing_sr.gif) cheerful
Current Music: Tactics and Freckles from Kenshin etched into my head
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March 23rd, 2004
10:43 am - Updates and Happiest day in my recent Life! ^____^
Today, I added a couple of Pictures to my Livejournal. I added an Inuyasha and Sesshomaru one which I am using now because I think it is very appropriate with what I am about to say. Yesterday night on MSN. I was so pissed off at my mother and then so happy with who I was talking too. It was quite hillarious. I went from Really Really Pissed off to Super Happy. I am not sure what mood I am in now. Yesterday, I was talking to Mouse and Peyton the most. I was also talking to Donna, which is one of my friend's that I don't talk to much. I was ranting to her so much. I felt a little bad. Not at the time of course becasue I was so pissed. Hopefully she saved it because it was quite a hillarious conversation. Mousey...Omg when I started talking to her I was very mad at my parents.....hope she didn't notice and then it turned cool becasue as usual she was poking me =P So I poked her back and she said she really wants to move out of her house so I suggested an Idea, why don't you move closer to me? She said she would think about it. OMG I ReALLY REALLY HOPE SHE WOULD SAY YES!!! ^________^ THAT WOULD BE AMAZINGLY AWESOME AND SPAZTISTIC. LOL I WAS SO HYPER WHEN SHE SAID IT AND I GET SO HAPPY THINKING WHAT IF SHE SAID YES??? THAT WOULD BE ^_^________^
Well anyway.....What I talked about with Peyton was something I have wanted to talk about with Peyton for a long time. Peyton. We talked about him the whole conversation, which I am not sure he enjoyed but I kept on talking about him and now I understand him a lot better. Which is what I want, I am so happy that he talked about himself because now I understand him a lot better whihc is what I want. (I think I repeated myself) He smiled too (or made a smiley sign) which he hasn't done to me for a long time...I had to ask him but it made me Really Happy! ^____^ Thank you Big Brother.
Current Music: Scrapped Princess Ending (Still stuck in my Head)
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March 21st, 2004
09:45 pm - Miss Yohiko, you better read this!!!!! >:-(
God. For like the third or fourth time in a row, Miss Yohiko stood me up....I really believed her this time too....;-; I stayed home all day waiting for a phone call and I stayed up till two in the fucking morning playing FF7. (which I beat by the way ^_^) I am so pissed off. First I was pissed then I was depressed for most of this morning (until my childhood friend called and said she is coming over for a visit ^_^) and now I am pissed again. You know what....I am not sure if I can wait for you again. Maybe once more but really.... your pulling my trust a bit too far here!!! If you read this...which I will make sure you do, Comment on it. Ok. Please Comment on this.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/angry_sr.gif) pissed off
Current Music: Scrapped Princess Ending (its stuck in my head)
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March 17th, 2004
11:30 am - YAY! Everythings all better ^_^ I am so happy now!
I had a fight with my love last night. Its all better now though. Yay. I am so happy it is. ^_^ Thank you Brittany Love. I love you!! I was a bit depressed last night but not anymore. Now to talk about other people. Whee. Brittany, I love you so much!! Of Course I do.. your like the funniest, maybe not smartest =P, prettiest, most awesome girl I ever met. I love it when your around and I can talk. P.S. i was kiddin about the smart thing =P Peyton. Big Brother. My only Big Brother. We became brothers because of how similar we act. We are like twins in personality, i swear to god, if we had the same appearance then the only way we could tell each other apart is by age. Thank you Big Brother... I wish I knew you when I was a kid. Mousey and Mae. The Two Girls that if I had to pick between any other two girls as my best friends......other then Brittany, I would choose these two!!! They are so nice to me....and they make me laugh and when I am in a slump they always get me out of it. (well most of the time) Thank you girls...you really do make me happy! ^_^ James! James, my best friend thats a guy. One of my bestest friends thats a guy! Hes so cool. I want to be like him. =P Well....i do in some ways. He looks like Vash. James is a good friend. I really enjoy talking to him. Don't ever go away James. Well I know I forgot many others. I will talk about them in the next entry. Bye now!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/sick_sr.gif) Sick and Happy!
Current Music: No Music
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March 14th, 2004
02:58 pm - Me, so Sick...
I am so sick. Every couple seconds I start coughing or hacking up snot. Its so gross. I am like playing FF7 in the morning and was like....ewww..(thinking) then went to the bathroom to wipe my nose and the tissue was so hard, i wish it was soft like charmin =P it might of made a difference. Me so sick i am not even caring bout grammer. I got to talk to Brittany though. She said she probably won't be able to go to Vancouver this summer which made me feel even worse. Well not feeel worse but I am sad now. I am sick and sad. But good news is I am going to see WWXX (wrestle mania 20 at famous players theatres. YAY I like watchin wrestling) Well I gotta go now. I hope I get better.....
Atleast I got to talk to Brittany today though. I am so happy about that. Our Love for each other will never go away. No matter what anyone says, even when my dad says, you shouldn't be havin a long distance relationship. I still Love Brittany though. NOw I really gotta go.
Current Mood: Very Sick
Current Music: No Music
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March 8th, 2004
11:24 am - Someone please reply, I need to know I am loved....
Sometimes (most of the time) I need love. I think everyone does sometimes. I miss Brittany. I haven't talked with you for a week. Since Last Monday. I really wish you didn't stay over at your friends house, So I could talk to you but that would be selfish though. I am happy you were happy though. I have one true Love, that is Brittany! But I love a couple of other people. Some people that are very close to me. Like my mom and Mousey, and Kitty, and Floryda, and Peyton and James. Floryda is sorta drifting away from me but she says that she misses me as much as I miss her. I am Glad that she thinks about me. Peyton, I should talk to him more often. I don't know why, but I haven't talked to him recently well not a good talk. James, I started feeling close to him ever since he was joking (??) about being best friends with me. I am still not sure if he was serious or kidding but ever since that joke (??) I have been closer with him. Mousey, you are probably the one I open up to the most. Ever since you opened up to me by doing something as small and silly as a poke on msn (quite a while ago too) I have not been so serious with people and I have loosened up. Thanks to you Mouse, I have changed for the better. I got to talk with you on the phone too. Heh I have NO clue what people are talking about with your voice though. You sound perfectly normal. Kitty, You cared enough to send me a sweet Kenshin Christmas card. I don't know if you did that becuz I was on your address list and you just sent it to everyone or if I was special to you. Hopefully the latter but yea. All these people also have people they love like Kitty, has Peyton , Chris and James. Mouse has Abi, Peyton and James. I am not sure about Peyton and James. I Love all these people so much becuase I can talk to them and tell them anything. I just feel sad that I am not loved in the same way back. I know I am not on all the time but I just wished that I would be loved the same way by the people that I love. I would also like to love more people. Maybe I should start talkin and openining up to more people. Bri†tany, where are you when I need you? I need your love. I know your probably thinking of me. I know you love me. I wish I could talk to you. Well yea basically I wish that everyone I loved would love me the same way back, enough to mention it at the least but it never happens. Brittany is the only one that truely loves me I guess. I truelly love her too. I guess if it has to come down to it, then I guess I don't need friends because they don't need me and I will just live forever with Brittany.
Current Mood: Sad
Current Music: Departure - In The Gloomy Darkness FFCC Disc 1
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11:14 am - I am Sick and Fuckin Tired!!!!
I am so Tired, of wanting other peoples ok, or waiting for someones approval. For example, I have many wallpapers on my school computer. One of them is Naru and Mutsumi from Love Hina, wrapped together in bandages. It is not Porn, it doesn't show anything. It just covers the bad parts and shows a bit of skin from the stomach and hips but not Porn, but yet the moment this stupid guy who never talks to me, looks at it (for quite a long time I might add) and then said wo in a surprised voice. I went up to him and was like what the hell was that? He just stands there doesn't even look at me and goes on with his life. So it is so fuckin natural to me, to change something because no one approves of it. So Fuck Everyone. I am going to do what I want, no matter what the fuck they think. I put that Wallpaper back to the same one (cuz I changed it before) Well now, I don't care what anyone else thinks of me. No one is going to imply or tell me that they don't like this or don't do this because I am going to completely ignore them. If anything, happens like that stupid idiot coming and staring at my wallpaper, I am going to punch him in the fuckin face. I am so Sick and Tired of waiting for people's approval. It has more to do with me then anything so I don't know why, I just need a good rant I guess.
Current Mood: angry
Current Music: The First Village - Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles Disc 1
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February 17th, 2004
01:05 pm - Why, Tara WHY??
Ok, I was playing Lunar 2 Eternal Blue and was fighting Zophar (After I finally got to level 50 and got Triple Sword) I beat Zophar's First Form, (Alot Easier then the first time without Triple Sword I might add, and I only used 1 Starlight) So then I easily got past his second phase and was playing his third phase and then guess what. "Get off its time to go to bed" WTF First of all it is only 10:30 and plus I was SO CLOSE. Well right after I get home from my friends I will go straight over and Beat down Zophar's Ass.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/moonsis/stars/red/hyper_sr.gif) Determined to Defeat Zophar
Current Music: None
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